Stigma of addiction 

Don’t be ashamed of myself for what I went through? I wasn’t sure how I was going to do that an yes it is much easier said than done.  The long term stigma attached to addiction is often hard to overcome, many of us believe that there is no going back to the world orContinue reading “Stigma of addiction “

Grateful recovering Addict

I have crawled, run and fell down many times over the years finding my recovery path. But the results were so worth the struggles to get here. Please just keep going forward and trust in yourself and your worth, recovery isn’t just putting down drugs or alcohol it’s about, being “OK” with who you areContinue reading “Grateful recovering Addict”

Freed from it’s grasp

Recovery, freed me from the grip of addiction. It gave me a new soul and start in life. My old self but a distant memory of horror’s my mind no longer wants or needs to remember. That place in time which brought me terrible pain, self-inflicted pain I must admit, see after that first tripContinue reading “Freed from it’s grasp”

Repentance

Repentance is a daunting thing, something that seems almost impossible to achieve for those of us who have walked the road of truly evil things. How do we find the strength to let go of those things that haunt our souls? How do we let in the healing strength to be redeemed first from ourselvesContinue reading “Repentance”

Back from the Edge

Day’s I agonized over the direction that my life was heading, those fleeting moment’s between the place I was, when reality took hold of my sense’s for that ever brief second and I could see what I had reduced my life to and the ugly it held all around me, both internally and physically. TheContinue reading “Back from the Edge”

One Last Time !!!

Addiction is so sneaky and cruel, as we move towards recovery dreaming of all the good things we once again hope to enjoy, that internal struggle faintly calls to us. We have managed to put a few days or weeks together and found a new job, a place to live that feels so good toContinue reading “One Last Time !!!”

Past, Present, Future

     The Future, is where we can dream of endless possibilities, a place that holds all our wishes, hopes and goals we now place on ourselves to maybe one day own our own home or buy that new car. That unknown abyss we strive to understand. We set plans in motion to aspire toContinue reading “Past, Present, Future”

Regrets, I’ve had a few!!!

Regrets are sometimes self-destructive and other time’s can be our biggest catalyst forward, as we invest our energy into this feeling it brings many other questions along with it like; “How did I ever let thing’s get so bad?” Regrets for me are many as I remember day’s of the past and if only IContinue reading “Regrets, I’ve had a few!!!”

The Past

In early recovery we all have different thing’s that seem to trigger fear of succeeding to the finish line, whether it’s communication with others from years of isolation due to being shy, ashamed or lacking in social skills. Maybe it’s feelings of helplessness or hopelessness, because you have failed before and just don’t seem toContinue reading “The Past”

More, More, More

     More More More. This is what my addiction always demanded, I gave with everything I had in me daily to feed it. There was nothing as depraved as to the lengths I would go to fuel the beast inside me. Our addictions no matter what they may be can never be satisfied, atContinue reading “More, More, More”