The Big Trap: Just One Last High! Is an autobiographical self-help guide about the author T. Rose’s journey into and then out of drug addiction and dependency. You can purchase the book on Amazon, and find out a little more about the author by checking out this Interview I did with her a few weeks ago.
When T. Rose first came to me to review this I wasn’t sure, not because of the content specifically, we don’t discrimination or censor things here at Off the Record, but instead because it’s more difficult to review something that’s semi or fully autobiographical, because you don’t want to rate someone’s actual life experiences. But I felt after looking through it that T. Rose had something important to say, and this book isn’t just about her personal experience, it’s a guiding influence from someone who’s actually been there and done it. It helps to sign post all the steps that lead you down the path of dependency and addiction, and because it does that it gives you the guide to avoiding it.
I have a lot to say about this book but a lot of it is specifics which I don’t want to share because you really should experience it yourself. I do want to add before I get going that I’ve had people in my family who’ve suffered from dependency issues, so this story resonated deeply with me. She managed to hit right at the core of addiction and what it can make you do and how an addict can rationalise it.
What caught me most is that it’s not just hard hitting and it doesn’t just delve deeply into the darkness and profound quagmire that is drug addiction, but it’s also engaging and well written. I mean, when I do these reviews I do my best to read and connect with the submission, because I need to understand the book to review it but when it’s a book like this It’s not something I need to do actively instead I just kind of got swept into T. Rose’s life and the narrative of The Big Trap: Just One Last High!
Now some of this isn’t universal, It probably wouldn’t be interesting if all of it could be related to someone else but those unique elements make it so engaging, but their are parts that any addict can understand and connect with and that can be best summed up in the title, which references the mantra of many addicts, and how they think that you can ration out addictions, how you can just have one more. It’s never that easy. I mean people struggle to give up chocolate for New Years, so imagine how much more difficult and uncooperative the addiction monkey is going to be if you’ve been taking pills or snorting coke. But T. Rose paints such a vivid picture of her life and the factors which led to her spiraling into drug abuse and it isn’t just all sadness, she shows the lighter side, and also the determination and hopefulness that you can escape the vicious cycle of chasing that last high.
So that’s what I thought of The Big Trap: Just One Last High! by T. Rose and you can check that out on Amazon. I think it more than earned a 4/5 for its honesty, vulnerability and because it’s hopeful about helping you through it yourself if your also struggling through addiction.
Addiction is patient and cunning, waiting for us to be vulnerable, hurting or tired of the fight. These time’s are when we must be on guard to protect our recovery, these are the times when r meetings, sponsor, and new recovery frnds r most important. These are the times when asking for help is critical to maintain the path of growth we r on. Asking for help for most of us is hard, we’ve learned to be self sufficient but there’s no place for pride when it comes to life and ur recovery. Stay strong and keep moving forward today. 😃💜🌹🦋💞❣ Rose
The lie’s of my addiction held me back for many years, almost 25yrs, lie’s that led to self doubt n fear, lie’s that said I was just going to die like this cuz I didn’t have in me the fight it was going to take to live in society again, to believe in myself again and.. Have recovery. I fought this battle for almost 12yrs of 2 mental hospital stays, many more rehab trys and halfway houses…. Time in jail that 41 arrests and 3 felonies brought me.
And it was only after I finally recognized the LIE’S was I able to hear the Truth.❣
Recovery is possible and something we all can achieve, the serenity inside we tried forever to get through using.
So reclaim ur life, fight ur battle’s and have happiness and peace in ur ♥. Life n recovery is there for all of us, we just have to go after it 🌟
Blessings to you today 💞🌹❤❣ Rose
16yrs now in recovery and it was a great journey to get here 💞
I wake each day with a thankful heart that today is another chance to make a difference in my life as well as the lives of others, family, friends and maybe even someone new. It’s a opportunity to smile brightly and trust in the serenity that surrounds me.
Letting go of the self-defeating noises from the past was hard at first, because I felt I needed to continue to torture myself. Though when I finally realized that I was only hurting myself by dragging my past with me did I find the strength to end the guilt, shame and pain it held. Nothing was going to change what had already happened.
The past is history and the future just a mystery for which we can agonize over or trust it will be what it is supposed to be and live in the present .
Recovery takes courage to accomplish it in the first place. Overcoming all the pain and self-doubt about many things, for me it was mostly; was I worth it, could I do it and how do I start over?
I most definitely was worth it. So are you. Our past can no longer discern who we are, because in truth we are now a whole new person, made whole by all our hard work. I knew it wasn’t going to be easy but I continued to remind myself , I said… Neither was all those years trying to figure out how I was going to get high today!
So could I do it? Could I really find the strength, resources and opportunity to overcome the past? Yes! It was there, I just had to find a way to take advantage of the limited resources available, but they were there to help me and you.
How do I start over, well I started over many different times and succeeded and failed many times. The first obvious thing was to not use, fight the cravings and stick to the plan. My plan after so many failed attempts was to do opposite everything I had done before, which mostly consisted of not listening to the advice of those who were winning in their recovery. So I spent time in painful reflection of my life as I worked the 12 step program, met new people in recovery and built a solid foundation of the recovery I have today which is closing in on 16yrs.
The next part of the plan was all the retraining I needed of life skills never developed to have a positive life. Meditation, prayer, school and work became very important daily parts as I rebuilt my life from the ground up and so can you.
So wear the new you proudly and never look back, the old you is no longer there.
In the rooms of both AA and NA we hear that finding Faith in a Higher Power is important, that thru this spiritual relationship you will find the courage and strength to move forward in your recovery even with the unknown infront of you.
This is very true for most, a blind Faith to continue forward and take on all that we had once feared. A higher power of our understanding is what the book says and trust that as you move on in recovery things will work out for you. This too is true though God isn’t going to do all the work for you. He will give you strength and guidance if you listen closely but you must do the work.
Those first few days when our bodies wreath in pain as we go through detox and we beg God to make the pain stop, it will stop but not before the poison is out of our bodies. Then we beg God to help us get our lives back on track but how do we do that when we have nothing to start over with… With God all things are possible. So do you sit there hoping God is just going to lay a job and housing in your lap or do you go out there and change your situation in order to win that new job. I had to go back to school for a bit in order to get the job I wanted, so I figured out how to make it happen.
But first I had to address the health issues I now had after years of polluting my body with drugs and bad behaviors. All the while trying to not get discouraged as my Higher Power said, slow down! It won’t be repaired over night!
So back to Faith!!!
Faith, that if I just stayed clean and sober for today, if I continued to do the next right thing, that my life would change… in time!
Faith in your Higher Power is something I recommend you find and create a private relationship thru meditation, prayer and other spiritual enlightenment… it does make a difference in how you will feel about where you are going on your path called LIFE!
Best of everything in your daily reprieve called Recovery!