Freed from it’s grasp

Recovery, freed me from the grip of addiction. It gave me a new soul and start in life. My old self but a distant memory of horror’s my mind no longer wants or needs to remember. That place in time which brought me terrible pain, self-inflicted pain I must admit, see after that first tripContinue reading “Freed from it’s grasp”

Repentance

Repentance is a daunting thing, something that seems almost impossible to achieve for those of us who have walked the road of truly evil things. How do we find the strength to let go of those things that haunt our souls? How do we let in the healing strength to be redeemed first from ourselvesContinue reading “Repentance”

Back from the Edge

Day’s I agonized over the direction that my life was heading, those fleeting moment’s between the place I was, when reality took hold of my sense’s for that ever brief second and I could see what I had reduced my life to and the ugly it held all around me, both internally and physically. TheContinue reading “Back from the Edge”

Past, Present, Future

     The Future, is where we can dream of endless possibilities, a place that holds all our wishes, hopes and goals we now place on ourselves to maybe one day own our own home or buy that new car. That unknown abyss we strive to understand. We set plans in motion to aspire toContinue reading “Past, Present, Future”

Crossroads…

Crossroads, is that place in time where you stand back and wonder to yourself, what is the right choice. It can be as simple as whether to salt that big basket full of french fries or not, knowing that you will swell up from it later. Or maybe you can’t decide if you will buyContinue reading “Crossroads…”

Addiction

Addiction is the most horrific thing anyone can endure, it steals from us our family and friends, it’s grip is all consuming and there’s nothing it won’t make us do to satisfy it’s need, we will steal from or hurt anyone who tries to get in our way, and from getting to our drugs. IfContinue reading “Addiction”

Fears !!!

Fears; something we all deal with in many forms, these can be the fears as a child scared of the noises in the dark and shadows on the wall. They can be fears of being successful and not living up to the expectations of others or ourselves, based on the expectations of the list ofContinue reading “Fears !!!”

Regrets, I’ve had a few!!!

Regrets are sometimes self-destructive and other time’s can be our biggest catalyst forward, as we invest our energy into this feeling it brings many other questions along with it like; “How did I ever let thing’s get so bad?” Regrets for me are many as I remember day’s of the past and if only IContinue reading “Regrets, I’ve had a few!!!”

The Past

In early recovery we all have different thing’s that seem to trigger fear of succeeding to the finish line, whether it’s communication with others from years of isolation due to being shy, ashamed or lacking in social skills. Maybe it’s feelings of helplessness or hopelessness, because you have failed before and just don’t seem toContinue reading “The Past”

Sunday’s Prayers

        Dear Lord,Thank you for another glorious day. As I watch the sun come up this morning I can only be grateful for another day. As I look forward to your instructions and guidance I go in Faith that my steps are where you place them. I ask Lord that you watchContinue reading “Sunday’s Prayers”