Recovery takes courage to accomplish it in the first place. Overcoming all the pain and self-doubt about many things, for me it was mostly; was I worth it, could I do it and how do I start over?
I most definitely was worth it. So are you. Our past can no longer discern who we are, because in truth we are now a whole new person, made whole by all our hard work. I knew it wasn’t going to be easy but I continued to remind myself , I said… Neither was all those years trying to figure out how I was going to get high today!
So could I do it? Could I really find the strength, resources and opportunity to overcome the past? Yes! It was there, I just had to find a way to take advantage of the limited resources available, but they were there to help me and you.
How do I start over, well I started over many different times and succeeded and failed many times. The first obvious thing was to not use, fight the cravings and stick to the plan. My plan after so many failed attempts was to do opposite everything I had done before, which mostly consisted of not listening to the advice of those who were winning in their recovery. So I spent time in painful reflection of my life as I worked the 12 step program, met new people in recovery and built a solid foundation of the recovery I have today which is closing in on 16yrs.
The next part of the plan was all the retraining I needed of life skills never developed to have a positive life. Meditation, prayer, school and work became very important daily parts as I rebuilt my life from the ground up and so can you.
So wear the new you proudly and never look back, the old you is no longer there.
Best of Luck in your recovery,